I realize that over the years things have been said and done that can
and never will be taken back. Some of them I am ashamed for, others I
will not even begin to appologize for. What is done is done. The only
step I can take now is the step towards the future. The step towards
hope. The step towards change.

I will not ask forgiveness. I will not ask trust. I will not even ask
for faith. I will only do what I have to do to make up for what I have
done in my life and to find forgiveness in myself. If those of you I
hurt find forgiveness during that time then so be it. I would be happy
to have it. But I think before I can ask for you to find forgiveness I
must find it first.

I have taken the first steps towards change. I have left death behind
me. I have left the hate, the anger, the pain and the despair behind me
and have sought out hope, faith, and salvation. I have sought to help
instead of harm. I have sought to love instead of hate. I have left more
than the indorani guild, I have left necromancy all together. Even to
the point of Aiden healing the marking that these vile necromancers
placed upon me, which I thank him for from the bottom of my heart.

I make this post not in the hopes of regaining trust, for I realize that
that takes time, but just to allow those who are not priviledged to this
knowledge, to know that I am no more a necromancer. I am nothing. I will
remain nothing until I have found in myself forgiveness and I can see
some inkling of hope. Some light in the horizon that will guide me to
the path that I was intended for. I hope that one day I can start anew.
That one day my actions of today will white out the actions of my past.
Until that time I'm sorry to have bothered those who have no interest in
my personal life. To those that do, now you know where I stand.

Reecillia Jade, Seeking Hope

Penned by my hand on the 2nd of Lleian, in the year 157 MA.