Anyone not wishing to know about my personal life just skip this post
instead of reading it and then commenting on why did I make it.

I want to start off by saying I am an idiot when it comes to love or
feelings I am a mess and people are best to avoid me. I am not the man I
thought I was I think everyone in the realms would have been better off
never having to have met me as I am sure many of you that I do know
would agree with anyway to the point.

I am happily engaged and drankI kissed my ex-fiance ruining my whole
life without even having a reason for why I do these things and why I
did this, I hurt my fiance deeply and betrayed her trust in me and
disgraced my daughter who has every right to hate me as she now does. I
did what I did and regretted it not wanting to awaken again because I
felt nothing from kissing her it only reinforced my feelings that I love
Allasandra. I have hurt her deeply too much for this I am most sorry and
for hurting my daughter who I also love and destroying their faith in
me.

I dont know if I will chose to live on still but I felt I had to warn
everyone of the kind of person I am and to make an effort to apologize
to those I let downthose that matter most to me and were always there
for me guiding me through all of my troubles. I see now it is not others
that were or have ever been the problem it is me.

From a dark hole
Aluicious



Penned by my hand on the 16th of Lleian, in the year 237 MA.