This is a question I have been asked enough times that I feel I should
make a public post on this topic. To those of you disinterested please
move on to another post. I have not taken the time to write anything in
well over 50 years so forgive me if my abilities are not up to
standards.

Many years ago I was waging a personal war with the city of Ashtan, it
was rather small and went generally unnoticed by most. This was just
before the creation of the Deepwater Alliance and Bloodloch declaring
war on the City of Ashtan. Once the war began I knew whom would be
fighting and for what reasons. I realized then that my personal war
could not end, as a Paladin I knew the innocent would suffer. I felt it
my duty and place to join this war no matter the personal cost. I was
stuck with a difficult decision, to either swear false loyalty to a
Goddess or to swear false loyalty to a city. It was at this time I gave
up what personal beliefs I had in the light and my own honor, to do what
I felt was to truly be a Paladin. Now I could not simply try to make the
guild aware of this because, well what guild listens to a rogue.

solidify I lied to the leaders of Bloodloch, proclaimed a false loyalty
that was morally difficult to attain. I even had to do the one thing a
Knight should never dare attempt. I should have come clean about this
fact a long time ago. When Spinesreach was pondering if it should come
to the aid of Ashtan or not, Bloodloch planned a pre-emptive raid. We
stole the commodoties of Spinesreach. The entire raid would have been
impossible without Lessik and myself. I mean not to drag Lessik's name
through the mud as I do not know his reasons. We used our powers of
devotion to force a Dhasan into lowering the prices of the wood and iron
commodoties. Lessik was to work on the iron and I the wood. Lessik
failed but I did not. How ever with my quick thinking I seemingly
escaped the wrath that Lessik did not. I let him take all the blame
because I could not weaken my chances of success.

I then joined the citizenship of Bloodloch and their militia. I aided
them in a long tedious fight that did indeed eventually gain the
attention of the Paladins guild and the city of Enorian. I mean not to
sound arrogant but perhaps I did truly have the foresight of the events
that would unfold.

I now spend my days in attempted redemption for my unholy sins. Perhaps
one day I will achieve my atonement. If I never do that does not bother
me. I will never stop fighting for what I believe in and what it means
to be a Paladin.

To those of you who have read this far, my thanks for your time.

-The Pureheart

Penned by my hand on the 19th of Niuran, in the year 151 MA.