How vain you are to think that any words you speak to me are going to
have any great effect upon my decisions. That conversation with you took
place at least 2 full years before I actually left Enorian. And as far
as that escapade went, I believe it was found that I DEFENDED myself
against attacks made upon me. Not only that but I as well did NOT attack
a citizen, I attacked a non-citizen. And as far as I see it it was not
an attack, it was a defense. I will not willing stand there and be
attacked by someone, just waiting for them to kill me.

The times my dear that I have been attacked by Enorian citizens (ie
Daskalso and company) I did not attack back, but allowed them to just
sit there and kill me. Not for lack of knowing how to attack and defend
myself, but out of respect for a city that I once loved. A city that I
would have fought tooth and nail for to defend. And as far as any posts
go, my dear Osifer, I happened to get many congratulations on those
posts, because I was speaking out what I felt in my heart to be truth.
And many people seemed to feel the same as I, only they did not have the
bravery to say such. And as my life was threatened for said posts, I can
see why they were afraid.

And as far as being brainwashed goes. I apologize for excluding such in
my last post, I had just entered the realms and my soul had not yet
adjusted. If I am brainwashed it was done so by the luminaries and
others who wonder about shedding innocent blood. It was from being
killed repeatedly for the crimes of my ex-husband, and not the crimes of
myself. I was even told that the reason that I was brought into the
fight was because "my side" was killing non-combatants on "their side".
Pushed farther and farther away from the light because of them showing
me what kind of people they truly are, I turned to where I have always
been loved, always been accepted, and where people have not harmed me
needlessly.

I am not brainwashed by any means. I had my eyes opened to the light and
what it really stood for, and I did not like it. I wished to fight it
and I would not, could not, do so as a forestal. I find your words just
as ignorant as you find mine Osifer. I see you speak and it gives me
headaches to think that here he goes again, twisting the past and making
assumptions. No, I have not spoke in deapth with too many Daru since I
left them. I know that some still wonder around just as lost as I was
with them. Wondering what is going on, and why. But what does that have
to do with the argument. What was said, was said. And I have no doubt
that though the daru may be pleased now because they are regaining power
in Enorian, as soon as they lost that power they would go back to
whining about how unfair Enorian is to them and how they will never get
fair treatment there. Delude yourself all you want, they are happy now
because they have gotten their way.

Please, don't resort to petty insults of my intelect. It only makes you
seem like you are grasping desperately into the wind for some hold on a
way to disprove my statements, and honestly, you cannot. You don't have
any clue what it is to have lived my life, or to have heard what I've
heard, or to know what I know. So in the end you don't know what I'm
thinking or why I am the way I am, or what I know to be true. All you
can go on is what you think you know and you, my friend, are biased in
your knowledge. You only hear what they tell you. Do you honestly think
they are going to tell you what their plans are? Are you that naive. I
hope not, because if you are, you are not the man I thought you were.

Fare thee well,

Reecillia

Penned by my hand on the 21st of Variach, in the year 140 MA.