Dearest Lady of Mischief, Goddess Khepri

(Its just a coinsadince that You posted just now and within the last
couple days I have finally figured out exactly what You were talking
about, In one way I am glad that You posted, but that was when I was
filled with anger, and obviously not the Misty You chose, or the Misty
that I liked or anyone liked. so here is what I have been writing for
You even though I didn't expect for Your wonderful post I hope that You
can take some more time to read this extreamly long post.)

*For the benifet of all the people who are annoyed with extreamly long
posts or confusing ones, I've made it simple for you to understand this
post by at the end of the post in a section sepporated by 3 lines of 32
question marks you will see an outline of the whole post that will take
but a minute to read.*


For everyone else who wishes to read start here:

I recently have had some time to think about things in recent and of
late. I�ve thought about the Divine, and the roles that They play and
how They react and interact with us mortals. Without really
understanding at the time I have been given a lesson in which now I am
fully aware of and am thankful. I will explain what it is that I
learned, for there was more than one lesson learned by the wills of both
the Divine and my fellow mortals.

First off I�d like to thank some people for helping with these lessons
in which I will go over in great detail (probably too much detail but
don�t fret I will free you from my constant digressing like now), and
the people are in no particular order.

Aren, I believe if it wasn�t for your discussion with me (though brief)
it did set the wheels of thought rolling so to speak, thank you for
practically forcing me to think.
Nightshadow, In your own way with the help of Aren I now see things much
clearer and will explain all that I learned after the apology section.
Rosalind, In a way as well you showed me one of my lessons, the lesson
of that people are different and that not everyone thinks in the same
manner.
Lady Khepri, You could not have orchestrated this plan any more perfect
for you are a true Divine. (I�ll explain)
To the numerous other mortals who If I named any more I would forget
what I was thanking them for, mainly for being individuals and having
individual thoughts.

Now, wonder why I thanked all of you for a bit as I apologize to a
couple people for I probably have wronged but wasn�t aware.

The Order of Mischief- As you will read in my learned lessons part of
this post you will see that I thought everyone thought the same (I know
you don�t understand this at this moment but if you read the whole post
you will).

My family and friends- I realize that when someone is not right it isn�t
just the individual that feels bad, it�s the whole �kit�n�kaboodle� so
to speak and so if my recent disposition or my longer disposition or any
of my dispositions heart you I apologize.

My dear husband, Cronides- I put you under the emotions feelings
rollercoaster and shouted and yelled and you stood there by my side, I
am sorry for making your �feel-goods� turn into �feel-bads� and would
like to make it up to you.

-=-=-

All right now, I got that out of the way, I feel that the explanation of
this post is in order and so this section is the lessons learned section
and its quite complicated sometimes so in order for me to clarify I will
explain it in various complicated ways that may get certain people
confused and quite possibly bore others. So to alleviate that problem I
have left right after this section of very complicated mumbo jumbo a
simpler explanation of all the lessons learned.

Ok now first off I will explain what I have learned, but since I have so
many things I�ve learned let me start off with an analogy if the analogy
doesn�t make sense now, it will further down in this section (then again
you can skip it and just go to the easy section).

The analogy:

�..So there you are in a large room and you see a big yellow box wrapped
with a beautiful pink ribbon with a note on it that reads, �Why did you
open this Box?� Puzzled and somewhat curious as to the nature of the box
in which you didn�t open you decide to find out what it is and so you
open the box and carefully take out another box which is nearly
identical to the previous box but just a sliver smaller though. So there
you are in a large room and you see a big yellow box wrapped with a
beautiful pink ribbon with a note on it that reads, �Why did you open
this Box?� Puzzled and somewhat curious as to the nature of the box in
which you didn�t open you decide to find out what it is and so you open
the box and carefully take out another box which is nearly identical to
the previous box but just a sliver smaller though�.�

Some are saying well the lesson is quite obvious don�t open boxes that
probably weren�t intended for you to open. Others might say you reap
what you sow, and others might say something completely different. The
truth is though in my case the analogy has a different meaning and this
is it.

�The forever box�
In life one looks at oneself and sees only the good or most promising
things about ones character never to find faults she or he goes on with
blinders to how other people might see that person. I for one could find
myself as the person with blinders on, so tight that I did not notice
that my original �box� or image as I am saying isn�t in fact the
original. I changed.

The analogy is related to me in this way, I learned about the nature of
mortals and most of all, the mortal in which I am. One of the last
things that Lady Khepri told me before She asked me to leave the Order
of Mischief was, �Be yourself... Find out what You are!� At the time she
said that I believed that She was speaking something I didn�t understand
some sort of �Divine language� somehow shifted to appear to be regular
Aetolian. How right I was, for in fact when She was saying �Be
yourself.� And �Find out what You are!� She was in fact telling me in
the Divine language, �Misty dear, You must realize that You are not the
same as other people, You see yourself as one thing, and other people
see you as something similar but different, Go now and figure out what I
am trying to tell you dear child.� Amazingly that is what I have been
doing, but let me take a moment to say that the journey in which I
thought was only a mere four and a half months was actually longer (I
hope you are still following), the lesson that Lady Khepri has been
talking about has been trying to be taught to me for quite a while,
though I was just ignorant of the fact.

A few years ago I discovered something about my past, mainly of my
parents being both Pixie and Imp and so I wanted to embrace both races
and try my best to bring forth a peace between them, so I made a deal
with the under-king to become a youth again and tried to gain entrance
to the homeland of Imps and Pixies �Minia�. As you know the Imps and the
Pixies seem highly irrational and childish. This is the nature of the
species but on my and there behalf it is only one side, the other side
is the highly smart and complicated joking, pranking everyday happy imps
and pixies that some have seen and come to love in me. Let me take a
minute now to explain about mortals from what I understand.

We all know mortals come in many different shapes and sizes and
dispositions, BUT, Imps and pixies in particular have something that the
other races don�t have. It is distinct in them and this is what I am
talking about. Imps and pixies are happy souls who are mischievous in
there very own nature and that�s their permanent disposition, so when
you anger or hurt a imp or pixie they don�t know how to deal with that
feeling (It�s a character flaw you might say, or a side effect of the
perma-happy, perma-mischief thing they have), and so often if angered
they result to screaming, being irrational and quite often hurtful.
*This was evident when I was denied access to Minia to try and
rationalize to them, after which I retorted with a nasty letter damning
both races*

So you see Imps have this disposition and I never really thought about
it, nor the fact that we imps imprechauns and pixies are only singular
in this affliction. Mortal Humans (who I am now quite jealous of) are
lucky enough to not only have happy feelings and mad feelings and
everything else in between but are able to understand that people have
more than one or two types of feelings and so don�t try to figure out
other people that much. The same can be said for all the other species
(though I�ve yet see a xoran cry).

Now, the reason I mentioned all that is because I am an imprechaun, I
know how to be happy, I pretty much spend all my life happy and so when
other people are mad, angry, or any other emotion I have a hard time
understanding them. Nightshadow (A dwarf) showed a mad emotion yet my
impish ways didn�t recognize what the matter was, for Nightshadow being
quiet towards me was his way of showing me that he is mad. I am sorry
that I didn�t realize that then for I would have left you alone. One
more thing about imps is we are quite inquisitive, so when you stopped
talking to me and I didn�t understand you were mad at me this only made
you angrier; Aren as a result seen how mad I was making you Nightshadow
and so he got mad at me, and in return Nightshadow was mad at me for
making Aren mad. All this is very circular in nature and the fact that I
had no idea why Nightshadow was mad at me originally just kept the
circle of hate going.

I didn�t realize this until I talked to Aren who when I asked why he was
mad at me told me for making Nightshadow mad at me with my constant
badgering (As stated I was unaware). Eventually I figured it out with
the help of Aren that why people were mad and for what.

So with that lesson (the lesson of people being different), somewhat in
my mind yet not really understood Lady Khepri decided to show it to me
in a more consequential way. After she asked me to leave the order I
went into my typical impish response (from happy to irrational anger)
and wrote constant messages and a letter to Her, I asked he

Penned by my hand on the 21st of Variach, in the year 134 MA.