Because I have no other means to speak to the Duiran Council as a whole,
specifically the Benandanti all at once, I'll do it here. I was cast out
approximately 22 months ago (give or take) as a traitor, for allegedly
copying logs. From what I understand, I am accused of copying the logs
for Murad in order for him to see who it was that enemied Ryusa.

Since then, I've been able to speak to Margali once (for a brief period)
as well as Sissfus, who was a great help in explaining to me why I was
accused. I also spoke with Lady Slyphe, who explained to me that Duiran
has no probation and therefore could have cast me out only to prevent
further damage to Duiran that I might do, though I hold no malice
against the Duiran Council.

To my knowledge there is no 'evidence' against me - only suspicion. Even
so, many people still consider me guilty. When I was first cast out, I
had three people tell me something along the lines of, "You shouldn't
have done it," as though someone had proof. I've yet to see any proof,
and I don't think there is any.

From what I understand, the suspicion lies in the fact that: 1) I was
new to Duiran. 2) Ryusa was a friend of mine. 3) I was open to the
possibility that Ryusa may have very well been tricked into performing
the ritual in the Chaos Plane and didn't intentionally harm Nature,
where others immediately condemned her.

Either way, Ryusa has been unemied. That has run its course I believe. I
however, have done my best to wait patiently. Aeron recently delivered a
message to me from... the Benandanti? Margali? I'm not sure, but
according to the message I could return if Murad would name his source.

I don't mean to insult anyone's intelligence, but Murad is no idiot. He
hasn't and most likely never will say who gave him the information. Only
a fool would expect him to give up the name of an informant to save my
hide - and as far as I know I mean nothing to Murad. He has no reason to
help me.

So I believe this is back where it began. No evidence, only suspicion -
and no hope of me ever returning to Duiran unless either someone
recognizes the fact that Murad will -never- name his source of
information, or until someone decides that it's wrong to cast someone
out without a shred of evidence or even an investigation. Or was there
an investigation? If so, I heard nothing of it.

Anyway, I wish to make this known now. I will continue to serve Nature
as best as I am able, and I will not admit to something I did not do. I
will also continue to wonder why I was the only suspect, when many
others had motive and opportunity. Ryusa has more friends than I, and at
least two of them were members of Duiran at the time.

If anyone wishes to speak with me about this, by all means, please do. I
have nothing to hide in this matter. I'd actually like to come back to
Duiran, and serve alongside those who wish to preserve Nature as I do,
but unless someone recognizes what I already mentioned then there is
little hope of that.

To Murad: I say this jokingly, but would you be so kind as to name
whomever gave you a copy of the log? It would be most appreciated. I
believe this is what the message asked of me... to ask you? I mean no
offense to you, but I wont get my hopes up.

To Margali: (Or all of the Benandanti) Is there anything I could
possibly do to... persuade you, convince you... to allow me back into
Duiran? I'd be more than happy to have a meeting with you (Or all of the
Benandanti) if you can spare a few minutes. If nothing else, tell me
that I have no chance of returning to Duiran so that I can stop worrying
over this.

Anyway, until events unfold I'll continue to wait. Perhaps it will take
a little less time to get back to me in response to this post than it
does to messages, even considering that the Benandanti are very busy at
times. I've done my best to see things from your point of view, and to
understand this, but for now I'll do neither. You wont hear another word
from me unless the initiative is taken to contact me first.

To those of you who took the time to read this horrendously long post, I
thank you.


Draoi of the Nemus,
Gilrath - Hermit of the Ithmia

Penned by my hand on the 21st of Ios, in the year 96 MA.